Another year has come and is going. it has been an eventful eventful year. a year of ups and downs. a year where i learn to trust the heart of God when i couldnt see His Hand. everytime i hear this song by chc, i always remember 2 years ago when i got back my a’s. i think its gonna be the song of my life.
You call us to follow
And we place all we have into Your hands
You’re all that we desire
You show us Your kingdom
Built into our hearts forevermore
Jesus our lives belong to You
Take all of me
I give You my all for all of You
When a painter paints a painting, the painting may not seem impressive and the people who looks at it may make no head or tail of it. But when the painter is done, the painting is revealed and the people who come to look at it marvel at its beauty and its majestic. We are like the painting and God is painting, when God is painting, we may not see the whole picture but the end product is beautiful. The painting is just a blank page without the touches of colours by the painter which is just like how God adds colour and life to our lives by His touches in our daily lives.
My life would just be a blank page if not for the doses of colour and life by God. Colour me today, God!
God gives us a mind so that we could remember the first times we had.
The first time we stepped into church
The first time we experienced His love for us
The first time we raised our hands in service to say i believe that there is a God who loves and He died on the cross over 2000 years ago
The first time we experienced His presences and teared
The first time we read the bible and the words seem to jump out at us
The first time we prayed and the prayer came true
The first time we invited a friend and the friend came
The first time we led a friend to know God
The first time we served in ministry
So many first times and each one so exciting and full of memories
God gives us a heart so that we can understand love and repent from the sins that we made
A heart so that we can feel His presence
A heart so that we can feel the joy
A heart so that we can love the people around us just like how He first love us
A heart so that we can empathise and sympathise
A heart so that we realise how much we have hurt God sometimes in the things that we did
A heart so that we can feel
Back to my first love. God
feel like letting go
not that i have but at least im seeing the light. been enjoyin life as i attend the civilian conversion course. late nights and wakin up when the sun is shinin in my face. thats one of the things in life to be enjoyed. anyway, i realise life wouldnt be pretty much the same if things that came together werent together anymore. for example, sleep wldnt be as enjoyable without the fatigue and time wldnt be as precious without the tonnes of to-do things. I figure thats the same with God, if we were that perfect, we wldnt need God, but the beauty of all things is that in God we are made whole again and its amazing that in our weaknesses, God shines! I am glad that sometimes i am time and again reminded that there are things that totally out of my hands and it is at that time where i know i have no choice but to look at God and ask for His help. Another example just popped into my mind, God’s presence wldnt come if the people werent hungry for Him. freedom wldnt be as sweet without the rules. Last but not least, somethin more practical. food wldnt taste as great without hunger!
Pst Tan really preached an awesome awesome sermon today. It really hit me like never before. Revelation of the day is that the only way to learn to wait on something or somebody is to actually wait itself.
It’s exercise time again. It is the usual routine of waking up super early and sleeping super late and long work hours. It has only been a 3 days and i feel as though i sold my life to the army. I am not complaining though. Feels different this time round too. It’s not cause my ord date is coming nearer nor is it anything. It just feels that i have totally been away from church. Have not been to church for the longest time despite the fact that i am flying off nxt week. pst kong is coming this weekend and it feels the whole church is getting busy for it but i feel out of the picture and out of touch. i must force myself in and get myself in touch.
10th anniversary was a blast and pst’s birthday celebration was a classic itself. the wonder boys realli shone on stage and there were tons of laughter heard from the pple. it was realli awesome. it was right straight back to normal life after that weekend. as they say all good things must come to an end, my mc is coming to an end too. next tuesday to be exact. things have change in my unit, 3 new guys have come in and 4 are bout to leave nxt friday. honestly speaking, i have become quite good friends with the guys that are ord-ing nxt friday. we went through man crap together and had much laughs. one even went with me to taiwan where we saw each other 24/7 for 20 days straight. once they leave, that will put me next in line and my shout of “ord loh” will get just that bit louder as the day inches closer. i reckon it will feel weird when i put on my uniform again. i was goin home with maril today and she asked me one of those question that will push you to think and thankfully this question has been running through my mind for the past 4-5 months or so. and that was what i was going to do after i ord. and her question meant “after” ord, not just the period after ord. in short, what i wanted to do for the rest of my life. i replied her what i would reply anyone else, that i wanted to become a full time church worker. there was some form of dilemma over this before 10th anni last weekend, but after the service, there was no more form of question and doubt that i wanted to go full time. yes i do wonder what if i dont, but somewhere in my heart, i know that if i dont i will be making a mistake in my life. at the forefront of every decision theres tons of consequences that comes along with it and i know that theres bound to be opposition to this decision but lifes a fight and my God is greater and i am sure i can go through anythin with Him.
anyway on another note, i realise that since dawei applied for monash and if he realli flies there, i would quite miss him. we’ve become closer friends after going through army together and all that. i think all the army guys in our cg have. we support each other durin the weekdays when we go back to our camps and serve our 2 years bond to the nation. but its realli cool to see the army guys in the cg getting stronger Christians and serving in church with even more fervour and passion. the new Christians are also super cool as well. Wei Kiat has been coming for 2 services almost every week since he got saved. thats powerful man and hes just so pure in the spirit. once all the guys are done with the army, i am definitely 100% sure that our cg will explode and it will be realli awesome to see everyone serving more in church. cant wait for time to pass faster but yet i dont wanna miss anything thats gonna happen in church and my life during this period of time.
on a lighter and sider note, its 160 more days to ORD. the countdown continues. hehe
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